"Because HE nailed it - I don't have to!"

I've been following Jesus for a long time. Seriously - it's 48 years since I first said 'Yes' to Him for myself. For over 30 years I've been doing a 'Christian job' and I'm a Pastor now on my second attempt after a rather miserable first-go back in the mid 1980s. Between these jobs I spent 20 years working for a Christian charity.

A couple of years ago I realized that 'nailing it' mattered just too much for me. I was driven by all kinds of 'personal stuff' to succeed and because it was almost everything to me I was never going to do it. As it happened, when I did nail a few things, because it was never enough, the satisfaction and joy that came with them lasted about as long as mist in the morning after the sun heats up.

With the help of others I've begun to learn that Jesus nailing it for me on the cross is about more than one thing. When I said 'yes' to Jesus all those years ago I knew He'd nailed it for me to be forgiven for the sin in my life and I was welcomed into a relationship with the God who loves me as a Father. That was, and is, pretty joyous and has been part of my life for nearly 50 years. But there's more than that. Living with the Jesus who 'nailed it' for me means I don't have to be successful in everything I attempt.

What I'm seeing a bit more clearly now is that Jesus nailing my sin on the cross also connects me to his life. Just how that works remains a bit of a mystery but knowing that he's nailed it, that his love for me is complete means that I don't have to be successful to prove anything. I don't have to nail everything and be the best Pastor ever, part of a Church where everything is awesome all the time. So it's great when things go well and okay when they don't. Sure, it's disappointing but life can be like that and at those times I'm learning to be someone who trusts the Jesus who lives as LORD of everything to work it out with, or without me. That's up to him I've just got to follow secure that he's nailed it.

I think this is what St Paul - in the Bible - meant when he wrote; "My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2.19-20. That's a pretty big idea, but I'm learning that for me it's saying, because HE nailed it - I don't have to.

Happy Easter.

John

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